Archive for December 2009

My last night of College

December 17, 2009

I was walking around State College today thinking about this being my last night of College — that never again will I experience this feeling of being an undergraduate, of having my entire life ahead of me with nothing to do with my time but live, love, and learn. 

As I walked I tried so hard to capture this moment, to solidify this feeling and place it on the mantle with all the other things that are precious in my soul. When I found that I couldn’t do this, I began to ask: why was it that I was ferreting about in my thoughts trying to catch moments of time, like meadows of fireflies, in test-tubes only for the sake of later being able to point at them with oily fingers — as if they wouldn’t die anyway! 

Did I even bother to ask time (the freest of free-spirits!) whether or not he wanted to be caught? How rude of me, I thought (is that why he eludes us at every corner?)! Perhaps instead of filling my mantle with jars of dead insects and rotting beauty, it might be more of a cosmic courtesy to simply APPRECIATE this moment, to value it for it’s freedom to yawn into the past, rather than snare it in selfish coffins — to let the moment not occupy a SPACE withIN me, but rather let it make an IMPRESSION ON me? Perhaps then this moment would become a PART of me, a part of who I am, and therefore be truly MINE – mine, yet without my possessing it? Aren’t these the things that are truly ours – the things we have even when we don’t possess them?

December 15, 2009

Colored blossoms scatter in the fall – this process is eternal, yet the blossoms themselves wilt and fade away. Everything fleeting is eternal, because everything eternal is eternally fleeting.


December 13, 2009

It’s 5:30AM and I’m still awake making incoherent palindromes:

I taste you duo; yet sati 
Niger is a sire gin
all images are sega-milla 
Said ‘tug-rim t-hegs’, “es geht mir gut, Dias”
       [–this one was pretty cool since it’s a bi-lingual palindrome. crazinessss]
now for a luger of won
peel sleep!!!!!!!

This is a cool video

December 11, 2009

Goa Ambient

December 11, 2009


December 5, 2009

Peter Aidu plays Steve Reich’s “Piano Phase” with two hands.

Michael Angelo Batio rips tits with two hands!!

3 Songs I like

December 3, 2009

Mike Oldfield: incantations part 4

Daemonia Nymphe: muses 

Daemonia Nymphe: daemonos

Thesis: Rang the SHC Gong today!

December 3, 2009

Thesis is done and accepted! Feel free to check it out. If you do skip over the abstract and the introduction, they’re boring and I only wrote them out of structural obligations.